tatilivestodance:

By the time I knew I loved you, we were facing the end of summer break. I was about to leave for a small town, and you were packing your things for another state. The looming difficulty of saying goodbye was already on my mind. I knew love would make letting go even harder. Those last few times of seeing your face and looking into your eyes had my inside yelling out to tell you, but my mouth never moved. I hadn’t expected to fall in love. Not again, not with a total stranger who I had limited time with. I pushed my heart to be as rational as my brain had become the months preceding our meeting. But instead it was my heart that swayed my mind. At that point, loving you was rational. At that point you were not a stranger, you were someone that I had know for years, even if it had only been a few months.

I love you, not because your smile is intoxicating. Not because your face is handsome. Not because you are the perfect gentleman. Not because you are great at sex. Not because your body is “yowza”. But because you care so much for those around you. You are moved by people in a way I have never seen. You want to do good and help the world. You see even the worst days with some kind of sunlight. You make me feel like the only girl in the world. You make me believe that there is always hope even in a hopeless situation. I love you because you are uniquely you no matter what.

I had come to believe that good relationship with someone who you could see yourself with for an indefinite amount of time was a thing of fairy tales and cheesy Rom-Coms. You showed me different. Being with you, I learned that you can have good relationships where you don’t worry about how long it will last, even when time doesn’t permit it to. In trying to be rational and explain how I was avoiding serious prior to meeting you, I managed to get you to think that I didn’t want to continue this relationship when you leave. But I want more than anything to stay with you. Whether you’re whether you are right next to me, holding me in your arms, or a 14hr, 938 mile drive away at U of Denver. I know logically that it can fall apart, but emotionally I know there is a way to keep you in my life and see you any chance I get. Even if it’s in a grocery store when we are edging out late 20s. You will always be uniquely special to me. My Knight-in-Shining-Armor. I love you. Always.